public apology

to the past,


to the people whom I effected in the past- this is my public apology. I am not perfect. I am still learning. I have so much growing to do. I realized I kinda just said, “eff you” to the past several years. everything I worked hard for, the relationships built & now I’ve pretty much burned all those bridges down. I guess that’s what I wanted though. I wanted to figure out who I was & what I wanted. Not what was best for me via other people. Not saying that the past several years was a lie and not me. that was me. that was me trying to figure me out & now I’m here. still figuring out what I’m about. I’ve done a lot of growing and taken a lot of risk. I am so glad I’ve made every decision I’ve made wrong or right in your eyes because now I am here. Where I want to be, who I want to be with and on the path that I know God has called me to be on right now. This apology is more for me so that I won’t feel super guilty for cutting some people out of my life. No one should feel bad for living their life and being happy. So I apologize to those people whom I’ve hurt. I didn’t intend to hurt you but I do believe you did intend to hurt me & make me feel bad with your words, although I’m not gonna take it anymore. Your words are yours- not mine. To that one person- You were a good friend. I’m sure you had the best intentions. May God bless your career & your new family. To everyone else- I apologize if I’ve let you down & for not being there for you.




Dear future lucy,

You love it when friends embrace your faults. Its probably one of the best feelings.

Embrace someones faults today, itll make you freeeee.

The story of here is, yesterday you were praying for a good friend, her name is Brittany F. She is so quick to embrace anyones faults & love them past everything. I have multiple stories of how she has made me realize how my faults are my own & no one elses. We all may struggle with the same issues but not the same way. So embrace someones faults today or embrace your own. 🙂


Dear future lucy,

You said this to a sister friend the other day, “if someone wants to be with you or desires to see you, hang out with you &/or wants to get to know you, they will.”

Whats crazy about being self-concious is just that…its crazy!!!!
I feel like im coming out of this, “oh glob did i just sound like an idiot!!?” stage…where i care too much & apologized for every little thing. Ive embraced my “crazy” & weird self & frankly, you should too. Embrace the flaws you have, the struggles you deal with & the character youve grown into.