going going going pause…and go again.
the past few months i’ve made decisions that not everyone approves of
much less is proud of me for making.
although i am always brought back to judgement day.
when my Abba Father will ask me what was i thinking.
in reality, i’ve thought this out….i wanted to have fun.
thats all. just fun.
why? was it really just for fun? was my heart in the right place?
why is it october & im still dwelling on the past?
its obvious that it effected me.
i was at church sunday morning & His presence was so sweet.
by His presence i mean God, Jesus & The Holy Spirit.
today, i was sitting with the infamous boyfriend at my job.
something hit me.
I do not know how to love…
like love love…
i know how to love people unconditionally but
to love someone with intimate feelings…like to get married to tell the person you love them in that sort of way…
i dont know how to love that way….yet.
and i let him know…and he understood.
then he proceeded to say “…he wanted to be my best friend..”
out of no where he said this. it’s like he has espn or something.
i was quick to say what?
not going back.
ive decided for myself that who i am is
who God has made me to be.
i am a scatter-brained, lover of people, music & passionate-Jesus believer.
thank you for reading.